Growing up, I never seemed to think about what it means to be a woman and what it means to be a man, or even to face up to the qualities I carry as a woman or the situations I face. As my self-awareness, especially my gender awareness, began to awaken and build, I began to calm down. I thought about the past and reflected on the injustices I had experienced; I had expectations and demands for the future. This is a retrospective and exploration of me, my inner self, and me as a woman.